William is coming over tomorrow to meet my dad & Ana..
I’m really nervous… I really hope he’s the last guy I ever have to introduce to him other than my son. .
I keep thinking about him… & How I hope he isn’t too good to be true. I hope we actually prove to everyone that we’ll last … I hope we’re that couple that people look at & are like “wow, they’re STILL together?” ..
I hope my dad likes him… I hope Ana likes him.. I hope he sticks around… I hope he’s not just another guy. & he’s not.. but I hope this doesn’t end.. I hope we last… I hope I hope I hope.. I’m in love with him.. I just hope I can trust him..I hope he doesn’t decide not to mention things, or not to tell me things..I hope he’s completely honest & upfront with me Like I am with him.. like I will be.. I hope we become best friends…a hundred and 50 percent comfortable with eachother. I hope we end up like Kacey & James…. being completely hilariously blunt with eachother..
Sonja called me today… & It was so lovely to hear her voice… & Little baby Marlas cry in the background… SHe told me every detail about how she felt about her, & the birth, & details about her emotions, how to take care of her, her voice being softer because she was a premie.. still having to pump even when she couldn’t’ breast feed the first few weeks, how she only gets mayybbbee 30 minutes of sleep every 2 hours… how she mourns realizing she’s not inside her anymore, how she’s scared about her going through her teeny-ihatemyparents-phase… hearing her tell me all these wonderfully beautifully powerful things… made my heart warm…She made me so excited to have kids. I love her so much. I love Marla so much… I can’t wait to meet her..
I can’t wait to be a bigger part of my sisters life too.. I can’t wait to develope our relationship & be closer to her…. Because we’re SO much alike.. & it’s wonderful… it be even better if we were closer.